Fumbling Towards Awakening

11) The Sacred Death of Old Patterns: Self-Responsibility, Rage & Being Met

What if healing didn’t always feel like a breakthrough - but more like a heartbreak? And that's OK?
In this episode, I share what’s been unfolding behind the scenes as I hold space inside Sacred Rage - and how launching this container cracked me open in ways I didn’t expect. I speak honestly about the post-launch crash, the old survival programming that still lives in my nervous system, and the tender process of staying true to my standards in love and work - even when it hurts.
We explore the quiet grief of outgrowing patterns, the difference between emotional labor and intimacy, and the nuance of learning to trust your no.
If you’re in the sacred in-between…If you’re holding yourself while letting go of what no longer fits…This one’s for you.
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10) Sacred Fire, Steady Strength: How Kali and Durga Rewrote My Story

What if your breakdown was the beginning of your becoming?
In this episode, I share how the fierce feminine archetypes of Kali and Durga helped me make sense of some of the most disorienting—and liberating—moments of my life. From breaking my back in my twenties to losing identities, relationships, and homes… to visions of my grandmother and ancestral rage rising through my body… these goddesses showed me how to meet it all with sacred fire and unshakable presence.
If you’re in the midst of a death cycle—or sensing one on the horizon—this is for you.
✨ I talk about how destruction can be divine
✨ How rage can be a doorway to truth
✨ And how we can root into something deeper than survival
If you’d like to go deeper or work with me 1:1, you can find out more at www.jennnoble.com.

9) What My Grandmother Told Me from the Other Side: Reclaiming Power Through the Witch Wound

Trigger Warning:
This episode includes references to family trauma, abuse, and a homicide-suicide. Please take care of your nervous system and listen in a way that feels safe for you.
Episode Description:
There’s a reason so many women fear their own fire.
It’s not just personal—it’s ancestral.
In this intimate episode, I share the story of my grandmother—a woman I never met, but was taught to fear. A woman whose pain shaped generations… until she came to me in a vision.
This is the story I almost didn’t tell.
It weaves ancestral trauma, mystical experience, past-life remembrance, and the reclaiming of feminine power.
It’s not just about my healing—it’s about the collective remembering that so many of us are being called into now.
You’ll hear:
🌑 The haunting legacy I inherited🕯️ The vision that began to unravel it🔥 The session where I reclaimed my voice🌹 Why I created Sacred Rage—and what it’s here to awaken in youIf your rage has ever felt like too much… if your power has ever scared you… this one’s for you.
Sacred Rage begins in May. Join us at jennnoble.com.
You’re not too much.You’re the medicine.

8) The Fear of Being Big

Why do so many of us fear being “too much”?
In this episode, I explore the deep, often hidden fear of taking up space—emotionally, sensually, and energetically. I share a vulnerable moment from a recent Tantra retreat, unpack the historical roots of this fear through the lens of the witch trials, and speak to how epigenetics reveals just how alive these patterns still are in our bodies today.
If you’ve ever swallowed your truth, dimmed your light, or questioned whether your fire is “too much,” this one’s for you.
✨ Learn more about Sacred Rage, my 4-week online journey for women starting in May:
👉 www.jennnoble.com/sacred-rage
Spots are limited. Join the waitlist now to hold your place. 🔥

7) Anger: The Sacred Steward of Our Boundaries

In this episode, we explore the true power of anger — not as something to suppress or fix, but as a sacred force for clarity, right action, and deeper connection to ourselves. I’ll share reflections on my personal journey with rage, and how learning to honor it has brought more strength, trust, and freedom into my life.
 
If you’re feeling the call to go deeper, Sacred Rage is now open for enrollment — a 4-week live journey for women to transform emotion into embodied wisdom and courageous action. Space is limited to 12 women.
 
Learn more and join us here: jennnoble.com/sacredrage

6) The Power of Integration – Making Transformation Stick

This episode is the final piece in our series on the Four Elements of Transformation and Healing—we’ve explored Somatics, Neuroscience & Mindset, Spirituality & Tantra, and now we land on Integration.
Breakthroughs are exhilarating—those aha moments that shift everything in an instant. But real, lasting transformation? That comes through integration. In this episode of Fumbling Towards Awakening, we explore why integration is the unsung hero of personal growth and why chasing peak experiences alone won’t get you where you want to go.
We’ll dive into:
Why peak experiences can feel addictive (and how to break the cycle)
Ancient traditions and modern neuroscience on integration
Practical ways to anchor your insights into daily life
How small, sustainable actions create the deepest transformation
If you’ve ever felt stuck after a retreat, workshop, or big realization—this one’s for you. True growth isn’t about collecting insights; it’s about living them.
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5) Surrendering to the Mystery – Tantra, Spirituality & Transformation

Continuing our exploration of the 4 Elements of Transformation and Healing, let's dive into different angles of spirituality, including its intersection with science. I share a little bit of my journey, as well as the difference between Classical and Neo-Tantra, and how they can all support you in lasting transformation. Check out my blog at jennnoble.com for more on this topic, or find me on Insta at jenn.m.noble. 

4) Rewriting Your Reality: Mindset & Transformation

What story are you telling yourself? In this episode, I explore mindset as one of the Four Elements of Transformation and Healing—alongside somatics, spirituality and Tantra and integration. I dive into how our thoughts shape reality, how neuroscience supports mindset shifts and why reframing limiting beliefs is key to growth. Plus, I share a powerful exercise to help you shift your inner narrative. Ready to transform your mindset? Work with me at jennnoble.com.

3) Somatics & The Body’s Wisdom

This episode is part of a series on the Four Elements of Transformation and Healing—a framework I’ve developed through my own journey and work with clients. Today, we dive into somatics, exploring how the body holds emotions and why true healing isn’t just about the mind.
 
Learn how embodiment can create lasting change. Dive deeper and connect with me at jennnoble.com.

2) Love It All

In this episode, I share a raw plant medicine journey that revealed the profound power of unconditional love and acceptance. Through deep shadow work, I explored the balance between embracing what is and saying “no more” to patterns that no longer serve. Reflecting on nature’s cycles and life’s messiness, this is an invitation to find grace and transformation through self-love and surrender.